Spending the past 5+ weeks dealing with and recovering from vertigo has been the worst/best thing to happen in my life.
Besides feeling like Bambi on ice, it’s been extremely difficult because I have not been able to accomplish anything. I have been limited in my abilities and actions. For someone who sets goals, measures progress, actively pursues achievement, and strives for improvement and excellence, being confined to the disabled list is not an altogether enjoyable experience. Nerve racking, frustrating, discouraging, #@**^@#, and so forth would describe my feelings about my stint on injured reserve.
Despite that, the past few weeks have been the best thing for me. I have received the ministry of others. Bob & Alan Butcher stepped up and built my deck. Floyd Gustafson and John Hawkinson offered to stain it this next week. I have felt the prayers of many, along with their words of encouragement. I have received grace and strength for each day. I have had more time to read during my forced sabbatical than I do during my normal schedule.
This morning I was reminded during my Bible reading that God is not impressed by my performance. Instead, he looks at my heart and measures my relationship with him. In Hosea 6:6, God says, “For I desire steadfast love and not sacrifice, the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings.”
Instead of doing things for God, I need to focus on spending time with God. If that is the only thing I learn through this experience, the time has been well spent.